Aggravation
I’m so sick and tired of listening to my in-laws. Yes I am totally 100% grateful that they let Marc, Kale’a and I stay with them until Marc can get a better job and what not.
But all the shit I have to listen to is getting old, real freaking quick. I’m so tired of being talked down to. I’m tired of everyone talking to me like I’m stupid or that I don’t know anything about anything. Especially my father in law. Like he tries to make me feel like I’m some shitty ass mother who can’t even put my own child to sleep. Whatever. I put Kale’a to sleep every day. I take care of her 24/7.
Another thing that pisses me off is when he tries and talks about my belly or my boobs. Who the hell do you think you are? You are my father in law… You shouldn’t be talking about the way I look, especially if its negative. Thank you for making me feel insecure about myself.
My mother in law is always yelling about how I let Kale’a sleep on the couch. Yet right now she is doing the same exact thing she gives me shit about. So it’s okay for you to do it… But not me? Because I’m not an experienced parent. Please. I’m so sick of her forcing me to go back to school. Yes. I’m going back to school! Stop making me feel like I’m worthless and uneducated. I will do things on my own terms. Not everyone gets pregnant at 17 and goes back to school at 26. Sorry.
I’m just so sick of everyone. No wonder why I’m so fucking pissy. As much as I love my in-laws some of the shit they do I just can’t stand. I need to get the hell out of this house. Praying for a miracle.
One thing I hate about living in the South..
..is the weather. I hate hurricane season. You never know when its ever going to rain. It was bright and sunny earlier. Now its so cloudy. I JUST put Kale’a to sleep and I’m pretty positive she’s going to wake up from the extremely loud thunder storm we’re having. I hope it doesn’t rain. AND I hate that my allergies are so bad here. Grass pollen is so terrible over here. My allergies along with Kale’a do not get along with them. Both of our eyes swell like balloons and our noses itch like crazy. I can’t stand it.
I am soooooooo bored.
Marc went fishing with his younger brother, Jonathan. Marc’s parents are.. actually I don’t even know where they are. Marc’s middle brother Josh, was messing around with a tv that he found outside. Kale’a and I are just sitting here on the couch. She’s passed out and yet.. Nick Jr. is still on tv!! -__- I’m so lazy to get up and grab the remote. But I am hungry. I really want a shrimp po boy but I have no money because my debit card isn’t working…. So sad. :( LOL. Two of my best friends are out on a boat somewhere fishing.
Lunch time
Eating a delicious BLT, with turkey bacon instead of regular bacon. If only we had wheat bread.
Can’t really tell, but my hair is lighter! Gotta make it an even lighter brown! Then adding some highlights! :D
My poor baby
I am praying to God that Kale’a is just having a bad day. She’s been really fussy. Especially tonight. She’s never cried and screamed so loud in her life. I tried everything from changing her diaper to taking her clothes off! I did everything I could possibly think of. She just kept crying and it made me cry cause I just couldn’t figure it out!
But right now she’s finally not fussy or angry. My mother in law says she might have an ear infection. It could be a possibility since she had it before. I just don’t like seeing my baby girl so unhappy And there being nothing I can do. There’s a possibility that if she doesn’t get better I might have to take her to the ER :( and I don’t like going there cause the last time she went they were poking her and poking her with needles. It was terrible.
I love my daughter :)
Sitting in the couch while I watch her swing in her swing. She’s just such a chatterbox now that she figured out how to make noises. I just love it. :) She’s getting so big! I can’t believe she’s almost 4 months! Where has the time gone!?
I know Marc is goodlooking and all.. But its getting tiring with girls around here throwing themselves at him. Slow your roll bitches. He’s taken.
Recently I’ve changed my mind about what I want to do with my life..
I’ve given up on becoming a Veterinarian and decided I either want to go back to school for Dental Hygiene, as a hygienist or a dentist. I’ve always been obsessed with teeth and how other people’s teeth look. I just think that being a vet in Louisiana isn’t very smart just because down here people are more about hunting than saving animals.. well in my opinion at least. Its not like good ol’ California where everyone’s pets are their babies.
But I applied for FASFA to see how much money I could get, looked at colleges and junior colleges around town. I’m a little nervous about it especially since the last time I was in school was back in 2010. But I have a great support system down here! Anything is possible if I put my mind to it right! :)
