Everyone’s on the boat or whatever. But it’s too hot for Kale’a to be out in the heat so naturally I’m home by myself with the baby. I never have fun. But whatever. I’m fat so I don’t want to show off my belly fat to the whole world… I’d rather complain on my tumblr than have everyone else bitch and complain about not being able to do anything. Cause all I want to respond with is “WELCOME TO MY LIFE.”
I sit at home all day almost everyday with my princess. I love her but everyone needs breaks sometimes. Mine is so long overdue.
As much as I am excited to start school I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to focus when every time I’m at work all I think about is Kale’a. We will see how the first week goes.
Drink responsibly. Party responsibly! But have fun everyone!
Marc left for work around 530. So I was pretty much awake since then. I couldn’t fall back asleep because of my stupid allergies. My nose wouldn’t stop running and I couldn’t stop sneezing. Love allergy season in Louisiana. And my eyes were so itchy! Most aggravating thing ever!
So I finally got out of bed from attempting to get more sleep around 645. Started on my makeup and then started curling my long ass hair! Only reason why I woke up so early. Hair has to be styled everyday! -_- idk how I’m gonna be able to do it everyday. Kalea started waking up and it’s so hard for me to get ready and take care of her.
I didn’t even have enough time for breakfast because I was planning in leaving the house around 830-845 to drop off the princess to Marc’s grandma’s house. Didnt leave his grandma’s house til 8:51! -_- fml. We had to be at Paul Mitchell for 9. And I literally was speeding and I hate speeding ever since my accident. I was two minutes late but nothing started and there were 3 other girls later than me! Our class of girls is so big -_- 23 girls! Ugh.
We watched a video on money and loans. Then we had introductions of the important people. I love our Director. She’s awesome. Anywho, then we had to throw this bouncy ball at one another and introduce ourselves stating our name, where we were from, our favorite food and our favorite song. Naturally no one threw the ball at me. -_- I guess my bitch face was on. Lol I was the last one to introduce myself! So sad.
Then we figured out why type of learners we are by taking a little test and then got into a group. I was in the B group with 16 other girls. While the other group only had 6 girls. The activity was to draw our ideal vacation spot. Our group just said we wanted to go somewhere tropical. So everyone just took pens and started drawing. I drew a palm tree, seashells, the Little mermaid (of course :P), a monkey with a banana and a mango margarita with a miniature umbrella lol! So we learned about our group is that we are impatient and we don’t think we just do. And the other group likes to take their time and plan things out. Apparently group B always ends up drawing alcohol.. LOL! Oops my bad.
Then we started talking about rules. Mostly dress code -_-. Fml. I have no clothes ill be able to wear and I’m broke as fuck!! Idk what ima do :( at least the first week of school is spirit week! Pwahaha! So I can wear whatever I want.
Ugh so tired! Every morning Marc wakes up around 5am to get ready for work and leaves around 530. Usually Kale’a wakes up around 430 to eat. The 430 feeding I always ALWAYS fall asleep feeding her. So she sleeps with us around that time.
After Marc left for work I guess she only fell asleep for an hour..I wake up to Kale’a growling just inches away from my face and her pulling on my hair. -__- I just want some sleep. My allergies keep me up all night. Oh well. Mommy problems.
Everytime I call someone.. NO ONE ever answers! -__- wtf!
So I had a child 6 months ago…and Kale’a is finally on some sort of schedule. She wakes up once during the night around 1-3am. And sleeps til about 8 or 9. During lunch time I’ll feed her then get her to take her nap.
When she naps I usually try to squeeze in a 20-30 minute work out. I mean it’s not much.. :/ but I’m trying so hard. I hate my body right now. It makes me so insecure. Everyone tells me it’s because I had a baby. I don’t care. I mean it’s hard to work out sometimes especially since I’m limited to time and what I’m able to do at home. I just feel so fat. I’m only 20 pounds over from what I want to be. I drink tons of water. I try to eat as healthy as I can but its hard when I don’t make enough to have extra money left over since I only make enough to pay bills every two weeks :/ so I’m forced to eat whatever my mother in law cooks and sometimes it’s not healthy.
Which means school is starting soon! I need to find a daycare ASAP!
I need to dye my hair or something because my roots are showing so badly lol! You can’t go to beauty school and have terrible hair, you know!? Geezus.
Today, I’m going to try this DIY hair lightening process that I found! :)) I know I’ll have to do it multiple times for it to actually show but it’s better than putting tons of chemicals over and over in my hair. I do not want to damage my hair anymore than it already is! Definitely will take pictures! :)
So yesterday Marc and I hung out with a couple who have a one and a half year old son, Amber, Nick Sr. and Nick II. We don’t really have friends our age around here who have kids. It was good to hang out with people our age with Kale’a.
Went to Outback for a late lunch early dinner then went over to their house til almost 10pm. We had fun. :) they’re an awesome couple. They’ve been through rough patches and so have we. We have a lot in common which is good. I’m so excited to have mommy friends!
Nick works for the movie industry and he knows A LOT of people. He’s worked on the set of Loopers, Contraband and Vampire Diaries. I asked him if he personally knew Nina Dobrev and he said he has her number but he hates her boyfriend lol. Marc and I were talking about me going to Paul Mitchell and how I want to be a makeup artist. Nick was saying her could totally hook me up with a job! YES! That would be awesome. :)))))
How much work it would be for me to get Kale’a into modeling lol!! Everyone is always telling me how Kale’a should be a model or be in pageants.. Eh.. Idk about pageants but modeling sounds fun. I just don’t know what I should even do to get her into modeling. Maybe I’m crazy for wanting to do it.. But who cares! My daughter is beautiful… I have to share it with the world :)
Kale’a had her 6 month appointment today. The doctor said by 9 months Kale’a could be walking with the way she’s advancing! Holy moley! I don’t know what I’m gonna do. My baby girl is getting big so fast.
Anywho! What’s aggravating me right now is people who bitch and bitch about not having enough money yet they spend the money they do have on other things rather than saving. If you want to spend money don’t complain that you don’t have any!
I freaking love cuddling with my pretty girl. She’s so huggable. Her sleeping next to me in my arms makes me so happy. She’s the love of my life.
I’m getting real tired of other moms and the shit they say. You can think you’re all high and mighty. You can tell yourself you’re a better mother just because you still breastfeed your child. I honestly do not care. Kale’a would probably still be breastfeeding if she hadn’t gotten RSV. I didn’t chose for her to get sick and not be able to eat. You breastfeeding certainly DOES NOT make you better than me.
And you can stop putting my child down. I think Kale’a is beautiful. My opinion may be biased but so what. I’m her mother. I also carried her for 9 months like you did. You just don’t go around telling other parents how much cuter your child is over mine. You don’t. I can go off and say how advanced Kale’a is over your child. But I don’t so please.. if you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all. Thanks bitch.
I try and try. I just need to stop caring and give up. But as much I say that in the end I know I’ll still care. I hate being ignored. I should just stop trying to converse with people who obviously don’t want to give me the time of day. If you don’t care… Then why should I? Takes two to tango. Who needs friends or family when I’ve got my baby girl.
Kale’a will be 6 months… What the heck. Lol where has the time gone!? I cannot believe how big she’s gotten in such a short time. I weighed her today and she’s 16.2 lbs! Geez Louise!!!!
She’s sitting up by herself for a good bit. She loves her veggies! She loves smiling and talking to anyone and everyone. She loves bath time. I just cannot believe how blessed I am with such a good baby. She’s so smart too! She can hold her bottle. She knows how to put her pacifier in her mouth! She’s attempting to crawl its just so unreal! She already knows how to pull herself up when I just give her my finger!
I’m just a proud mama! She is a trooper! Marc and I took her to get her shots. She cried for maybe a minute and she was fine! :D but I know her legs are still sore :( poor princess.